- Mood:
Hopeless - Listening to: Creature by Atreyu
- Reading: Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
- Eating: nothing, because I'm too depressed.
There's this super-fine guy names Elisha I've been crushing on for over year. He's so fine, I feel ashamed of myself when I look at him, no joke. He finally decided to truly take notice of me about two months ago. He seemed to be throwing me flirty looks, waving at me and giving me cute smiles. I was so ecstatic. I finally built up the nerve to ask him out, and was anticipating the next time I would see him. Well today, I was talking about him with my friend. I hadn't told her that I was going to ask him out or anything, or how much I truly actually liked him, seeing as I had only met her recently. In the middle of the conversation, she decided to say, "Oh, Elisha doesn't date. He thinks it's unimportant. He's focusing on his relationship with God. Can you say 'aw'?" Then she started dreaminly smiling, talking about how sweet that was, and how she hoped to grow up and marry someone like that. I sat there shocked, trying to hold back tears. It husrt a lot. I know I'm too young to be in love, but he was the first actual crush I've ever had, and the first person I was or had ever asked out. And by the by, I'm agnostic.